Saturday, October 24

In The Deep

via Neon Stilletto

Have you ever felt like disappearing from this world?

I do.

And I don't think I'm the only one, there's many out there who keep themselves in silent pain rather than reaching out to anyone. Some just filter their minds out through writing, singing or simply by just doing things.

If there's one advice I'll ever give, nothing is forever.

Trust me.

You can never able to be in sadness forever, not without driven into madness ending up in a miserable demise. However, it's not likely to happen if you're responsible, yes I know how things can get out of hand but I believe there is point where you can stop it.

I do have regrets of my own, but like Frank Sinatra said; just too few to mention.

Most of the time I don't remember them or haunted by the thought of it. I want to live life in all its forms. Sad or happy, I will savour each moment with all my heart, as we love of it equally, I try to refuse to have a favorite because I do not want to relate myself to something, getting tied to it.

It would be a hard thing to do, but if everything was easy what is the point then?

For some reason, I'd like my life to have me at the edge of my seat, when I was first experiencing life at the tender age of eighteen, life was so exciting but everything has it consequences. I was learning things that was never taught by my parents nor my peers; it was wrong, it was dangerous, but most importantly it was me.

Somehow, I've gotten myself so close to this nature that I felt that I'm changing along with it. Got myself into troubles I've never been into before, change of personality and people around began to isolate me. Because I'm different? Let me repeat. Because I am different?

Yes, that was the case.

I managed to fight my way out from these webs of deceit, and make a winner out of myself. A fair deal you may say but really, do you see what is happening?

Nothing is forever.

I do love the feeling of being warm and loved all over, its a nice feeling but I know there will be a day where I am weak on the floor writhing in pain, crying. I wonder if Newton's third law actually applies, as every action has an equal opposite reaction.

And oh, I'm going off now. Bye.